I’m not the first in my family to live abroad. I recently found out that my Great Aunt almost went to Taiwan. Who knew? She almost went to the beautiful island I now call my second home. Not only that, my dad lived in Germany when it was East/West and he talks about how he misses his life there to do this day. The last time I talked to my brother on the phone, he told me our dad was watching the Bourne Trilogy to see Germany in the background.
It got me thinking, you know? This will one day be me. I can imagine myself watching movies simply for the scenes that were shot either in Shanghai or Taiwan. I don’t mean to be melancholy (or a better word for it would be sentimental).
For starters, I went to my local park to see the beautiful flowers. It honestly felt kind of nice to be able to see what’s around my neighborhood. I at least can explore at my own pace. I really needed to get out for a while, honestly.
Despite I’m introvert, it doesn’t mean I am anti-social. I may often find small talk irritable, it sometimes kind of nice to talk to a stranger every once in a while. For an example, a nice elderly man was held the elevator door for me to get inside. I quickly said thank you, pushing the button of the floor I’m going to. He looked over at me, “Do you speak Mandarin?” I replied,”A little bit.” “Ah,” he said while he was trying to get his dog into the bag. I looked down at his dog, “I think your dog is very cute.” His smile grew big, “Thank you!” He stepped out of the elevator smiling and so did I.
Besides, I realize strangers find it easier to approach you when you’re alone. I’ve had some of the most interesting talks when I’m solo.
My doodles may not be much, but at least drawing is inexpensive therapy and it gives me something to do on my free time. I have been inspired by living abroad. Shanghai is a vibrant city and it has become my third home.
I at least don’t have to share my dessert. I was craving Taiwanese shaved ice and going to the restaurant alone was totally worth it. What I like about eating in Taiwan or China is that it’s perfectly okay to eat alone at a restaurant. Despite I’m an introvert, even I didn’t dare to eat out alone while I was living in New England. You know what? I will probably continue to eat alone even when I go back to the States. If I’m craving x and y, I don’t need somebody to join me simply to eat it.
Side note: While I may have felt isolated in the past week, it didn’t last long. I kept busy by going to the park, got creative with the sharpie markers, had delicious Taiwanese dessert and even started reading more information on Denmark (don’t ask). I guess what I am trying to say is that sometimes I may feel disconnected, I do have a rather sweet life.
Now excuse me, I’m going to finish my cake. Nothing lasts forever, so I’m going to enjoy every last bite of it.